My Lord, why have you not heard my crying?
Is my voice not loud enough to reach your ears?
I sit in the pool of my own tear drops,
drowning in the loneliness of my fears.
I yearn for you. I yearn for freedom-
caged like some wild beast no matter where I go.
But your enemies…they’re free to roam.
They walk by their own willpower,
yet I can’t manage a crawl.
Why am I abandoned in the shade of your love,
why must I face all my journeys alone?
I longed as a child for answers
to the questions that haunted me, sought me out
day after day, believing that when I got older
the fog would burn away and truth would become clear.
Yet here I am Lord, all grown-up and still without answers.
In fact, with more questions and even the answers I had
as a child no longer satisfy, but breed more doubt.
I look out at the world. I still see you.
But you’re so far away.
Come back to me Lord and make your dwelling place in my heart.
Chase this darkness away- this doubt that grows like a cancer
and spreads its cells across my soul.
Pull the sun out from behind the clouds
and allow the rays of your grace and mercy to fall upon my face.