Conversion A Poem About the Love and Grace of God I began divided. Quite selfish with a heart hungry for evil yet filled with a deep longing brewing below the surface that never seemed fulfilled by anything other than you. So what was I to do - in love with myself and my selfish desires but realizing more each day my need for you? I opened my ears to your voice but kept my heart safely distant. You told me to follow you. And I obeyed... at a snail's pace, slowly inching my way towards your grace. The closer I came the louder my name reverberated from your lips. Though the louder too were my selfish longings. Lust ran high in the dry, dusty desert of restraint and tried to pull me back into the slavery of gratification. I gave in time and time again but refused to allow my sin to convince me to hide in shame from you. For at the core of my being, I knew you held something true - an answer to a question about the essence of life itself that couldn't be answered along any other path but yours. So I continued hauling my heavy shell behind me and sluggishly crawled onward, but the way forward didn't get any easier. I only found myself more divided, fragmented into forces fighting within myself. My head became a bed for commotion, tossing me to and fro like the waves of the ocean. The inner struggle only made me more aware of the seriousness of my situation: I had a head full of God and a heart unwavering it its insistence upon serving itself. It was daunting, haunting me in its clutches and causing me to lose sleep like a nightmare stuck on repeat, waking me up in the night to the harsh realities of life. How was I to serve two masters and attend to both of their matters? My ego wasn't lulled to sleep nor cowered to the call for its destruction. But raged and rattled the cage your spirit had created for it. I trusted that your grace was vaster than all the stars shinning forth forgiveness in the dark to the farthest corners of the universe; surely my sin was no match for your goodness. I resolved to stop worrying so much about "do nots" that I never seemed capable of obeying and to focus on following through on the "dos" I was perfectly capable of undertaking. And there your spirit freed a seemingly unsavable prisoner from the bondage of self and turned me towards the Divine. For you kept me so busy doing your will that I forgot about mine. Justin Farley
Living in Love To live in Love we must first accept the imperfection within ourselves before we can accept the imperfection in others. To live in Love we must first bandage our own wounds before we treat the wounds of the world. I grant grace to you in your weakness to the extent that I allow God to grant grace to me in mine... Such a simple request, such a simple gesture, requires opening such a tightly clasped lock by speaking the hardest phrase known to mankind: "I need help." Humility precedes Love - you'll never find Love until you quit trying to fool yourself into believing you don't need Love. We grow in grace by first accepting our mistakes. Once we grasp the extent of our own limitations and flaws, we begin to see the world, others, and ourselves as we are - flawed and limited but nonetheless deserving of love. Justin Farley
Hello, everyone! I have recently published my first chapbook of Christian poems titled “A Voice in the Wilderness – A Chapbook of Poems about God”. This has been developed and polished over the past six months or so. I am happy with the final product and hope you find encouragement in the poems but also a validation that the spiritual life is not all sunshine and rainbows. We all struggle. We all have periods of questions and/or doubt. But it is the yearning that keeps us coming back for more and allows us to experience joy.
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Grace – A Poem
I am awed by the way you move me
like freshly fallen snowflakes dusting across the frozen ground.
Some days I forget the barren tundra from which I came
and how you whispered by name, echoing across that vacant landscape
so that a lost soul could be found.
Some days time passes by me without a single thought
that each waking moment is a treasure –
a gift granted, light years away from being deserved.
But despite all my wrongs and all the foolish footpaths
I chose to walk, in my time of desperation I called
and without hesitation you answered.
Each single second is abounding opportunity,
a renewed possibility for new life.
My destination was one I was unable to arrive at
by the work of my own hands, but while I lingered,
withering away in the darkness, you nestled me
within your loving embrace and brought me back into the light.
The fact that I breathe and my heart beats
is a living testament to your endless love and grace.
May I never forget from where I came and that each day is a gift
that I should unceasingly praise and never waste.
-Poem Written by Justin Farley
The Abundance of Your Mercy – A Christian Poem For Lent
In the hour of my tribulation,
I fail the same trials and tests
Time and time again.
Delighting for a fleeting moment in my selfish pleasures
Before becoming quickly convicted of my sin.
Do I find peace, joy, or comfort in my lustful wallowing?
Surely not more than a meager taste,
Only to leave starving all the more.
So why do I continue to turn away from you
When you hold the keys to my prison door?
I simply don’t have an answer for my actions,
Besides some part of me that longs
For the taste of forbidden fruit.
In my moment of heated passion, my heart deviates from reason
And accepts selfish lies and denies eternal truth.
It is not only action that sentences me,
But waves of remorse and guilt that fill me up
And cut me to the core.
After all my deceit and broken promises
How do I come crawling back and call you Lord?
But let not my finite mind
Rule out the abundance of the love
And mercy that fills your cup.
Let me simply praise your name,
Humbly accept it, and drink the New Covenant up.
-Poem Written by Justin Farley
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“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” (Romans 7:15)
I think just about everyone can relate to this verse. We find ourselves committing the same sins over and over again, even after we swear we’ll never commit them again. This may be one of the hardest things about developing a relationship with Christ. We know what we should do, we want to please Jesus, but then time and time again we fall to our sinful nature. After we commit the sin, we are then left with the overwhelming guilt and inadequacy that follows.
We should strive to be perfect, but understand that we will never be. I think we have a tendency to believe that when we follow Christ, all our past struggles and sins will become easy to conquer. In fact, in many ways the opposite is true. Once the Holy Spirit enters your life and convicts you of sin, your eyes are opened to how sinful your life is. What you may have thought were a few minor problems are revealed as major stumbling blocks to a relationship with God. But the one thing that you have now that you didn’t have before is the aid of Jesus if you reach out to him.
Christianity is so comforting in many ways. Not only do we have a God who cares, but also a Savior who became man. We can’t use the excuse “…but you don’t know what it’s like” because he does. Jesus felt all the temptations that you and I face on a daily basis. He knows how powerful sin is and what we are faced against. That does not mean he gives us a get out of jail free card to do whatever we want, but we can be assured that he knows how hard it is to do the right thing.
If you look at the actions of Peter and Judas before the crucifixion, they are very similar. Judas betrayed Jesus and handed him over to die, while Peter denied him and abandoned him. I guess you could argue that Judas committed the worse sin, but they’re pretty equal. The events that followed their sins, however, are vastly different. Judas did not believe he could ever be forgiven and killed himself. Peter, on the other hand, sought Christ’s forgiveness and became one of the greatest leaders in the history of the Church.
Our greatest threat to our relationship with God is not the original sin we commit, but believing that we’re not worthy of forgiveness. We are never too far gone. There is no sin that is greater than the mercy of Jesus. Allow shame to convict you and motivate you to change, but don’t let it tell you that you’re worthless or unlovable. Call on Jesus to extend his grace to you and pray that he gives you the strength to battle your sins. He is waiting with an extended hand to welcome you back into his arms, but you have to grab a hold of his hand.
One of the hardest things to do as Christians is to uphold the truth of the Word, while at the same time not judging or condemning people. Comments like: “If they’re offended at what I say, they need to take it up with God because all I am doing is spreading his Word” seem to be an excuse for self-righteousness and does nothing but fuel hate and anger. Many non-believers hatred of Christianity steams from this idea that Christians are hypocritical and judgmental. In many ways, I think they have a point. But do we just sit back and let the people we care about make sinful and damaging choices without speaking up?
This topic is much easier said behind the safety of a computer screen. When I was wishy washy in my faith and even strong in my faith, I’ve never wanted to be the annoying jerk that feels they need to call out every person’s flaw and threaten them with hell if they don’t repent. But last night, someone I care about mentioned wanting to do something that is totally against God and everything I stand for. Something that I never thought in a million years I’d hear this person say. And anger fueled within me. I became the person I never wanted to be and wanted to lash out at them and tell them how wrong they were. The only way we can spread the Word lovingly is by remembering God’s mercy for us. In the midst of our sin, he sent his son, Jesus, to die for us. We can’t console with love and compassion until we realize that God’s grace is the only difference between the sinner and saint. Never compromising, but speaking from a place of love, not anger.
Loving In Spite Of Sin
Your words set my heart on fire,
Anger burns, steaming like smoldering coals,
But I can’t allow the heat
To escape my mouth.
I close my chimney and seal my lips shut.
But the pressure boils.
Smoke clouds my vision
Without the flue damper open.
How do I stay true to my heart
Without scalding the recipients with my words?
How do I strip away the pride, anger, and self-righteousness
So that only God’s voice will be heard?
How do I keep loving them
When their behaviors disgust me?
How do I walk on the path of truth
With love, but without compromise?
The bonfire burns in my belly
And ash builds on the tip of my tongue.
My conscience is convicted,
But my love is dazed and stunned.
A glance in the mirror
Reveals your divine wisdom
and shatters my arrogant pride
In broken shards scattered across the floor.
My reflection reveals
That I’m just as filthy as the next man.
In your eyes, by my own righteousness,
I am just as unclean as the darkest sin.
And I have not been able
To bathe in soap and water and scrub away
my mistakes by own own actions,
But only by bathing in your precious blood.
Guide me in grace.
May my actions and words
Always wear your face,
And may my convictions be spread with love.
– Poem Written by Justin Farley
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